Just the beginning!

I had a dream where I felt stuck and I couldn’t move forward in life.

I had all these voices in my head saying ‘you can’t do this because you owe someone this’, ‘you should do that’, ‘you can’t do that, it’s not allowed’. And suddenly I realised none of that is True. I just got up and walked away. I silently walked away from everything. 

Then I woke up like a deer in headlights.

I couldn’t go back to sleep right away, I had to reflect and digest what I was sensing energetically from the message in this dream.

For the first time, I’m not more afraid of being stripped naked and moving on, actually I’m more afraid of staying still. Everything I thought I was creating in this life with career, everything, it all feels like it’s suffocating me now and all I want to do is walk away and leave it all to crumble behind me. I can’t believe I’m excited more than scared. I’m in shock. I feel ‘bring it on’ ‘I’m ready’ ‘let’s shred it all and start all over again and let nothing be the same’ 

It’s like everything I’ve been building I thought would make me happy and now it’s suffocating me and making me small, I want to knock it all down like a block of Jenga and start over. 

It’s as if life is knocking on the door and saying ‘ah you thought this was the end? No dear it’s just the beginning’